From Nov 3 until into February the fact that mom is gone is much harder than the other months of the year -- not to say I don't have my hard days during those months too! It just seems Nov, Dec, Jan are the three toughest... her birthday, my birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, the day she went home to be with Jesus... all days that remind me how much I miss her. Not to mention lately with the new job and looking for (and finding!) the new place, all things I would have been talking to her about everyday... As I prepare to head up to Ohio for Christmas with my family I am very excited, but it is bittersweet because I miss this
As I was just reading through one of my friend's blog I was sent to a different friend of her's blog (it's a crazy connection, but its worth it) on which she had a post a little while back in memory of someone with a poem that really touched me and made me think of mom.
God saw you getting tired,
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you,
And whispered “Come to me”.
With tearful eyes we watched you,
And saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands to rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes the best.
I know mom is celebrating everyday, and will be celebrating Christmas especially, in a more wonderful way than I could ever imagine. And, it is so reassuring to know that she is in perfect health in heaven now and will never suffer again! For that I am thankful. But, I miss her and wish she was still here with me. I know He has a plan that is out of my understanding and I just have to trust Him. He loves my momma more than I do and has healed her in His own way.
I love you, Momma!
Merry Christmas
5 comments:
jessie,
fred and i miss your mom. we were talking about her the other day. i think about her alot. i'm glad to read your blog. thoughts, prayers and Merry Christmas. gina
Jessica,
Your mother would be so proud of you...the one thing she really cared about in life was her family...family was ALWAYS first with Debbie. I miss her too, but am so grateful she & Chris are NOT sick anymore. We love you Jess.
Words cannot express how much I wish I could give you a hug right now. Your strength amazes me, Jess. Love you and know that I am thinking of you.
Jess
For some strange reason I clicked on your blog from Caras and this was the post I saw and you got that poem from my post about Robyn.... Well everything happens for a reason!
I actually just ran across this poem today actually.... I think it was meant for you and your mom!
Xo
I See The Countless Christmas Trees Around The World Below
With Tiny Lights, Like Heaven's Stars, Reflecting On The Snow
The Sight Is So Spectacular, Please Wipe Away The Tear
For I Am Spending Christmas With Jesus This Year.
I Hear The Many Christmas Songs That People Hold So Dear
But The Sounds Of Music Can't Compare With The Christmas Choir Up Here.
I Have No Words To Tell You, The Joy Their Voices Bring,
For It Is Beyond Description, To Hear The Angels Sing.
I Know How Much You Miss Me, I See The Pain Inside Your Heart
But I Am Not So Far Away, We Really Aren't Apart.
So Be Happy For Me, Dear Ones, You Know I Hold You Dear.
And Be Glad I'm Spending Christmas With Jesus This Year.
I Sent You Each A Special Gift, From My Heavenly Home Above.
I Sent You Each A Memory Of My Undying Love.
After All, Love Is A Gift More Precious Than Pure Gold.
It Was Always Most Important In The Stories Jesus Told.
Please Love And Keep Each Other, As My Father Said To Do.
For I Can't Count The Blessing Or Love He Has For Each Of You.
So Have A Merry Christmas And Wipe Away That Tear
Remember, I Am Spending Christmas With Jesus This Year.
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