Two Years... my memories

I can't believe it was two years ago today that you went home to our Heavenly Father for eternity. I remember so clearly the weeks leading up to today -- well, honestly to yesterday -- and can vividly remember everything that went on for me yesterday and today, two years ago. I had been up to Ohio to see you after you had had a really rough time on the 12th of this month, so I came up and will never forget that night I walked into the hospital room for the first time. We opened the door and the room was full of people from church and full of God's spirit. I remember the group of people parting as I walked through the door so I could see you and walk over to dad. I remember Curt Fannin praying for you before they all left that evening. I remember being so thankful for those people who were supporting my family (and me) during this time. I remember being at the hospital with you that week and the times that we were able to chat shortly and remind each other of our love. I am so thankful for those times! I remember having to leave to go back to work in Texas... so hard. Then I remember January 22, 2007... I had worked the night before, and as was habit called in the morning to see how your night went. It was a rough one, but you were resting at that point. During the day I know the doctor(s) and your nurse called me a couple of times to update me on what was going on and how things were changing. I called when I was up and on my way to work to check again and dad told me that things were not good, but at that point there was no way for me to get out of Corpus until the next morning... dad told me just to go to work. So, I got my Jamba Juice ( you know how much I love those!! ) and went into work. I am so thankful for how amazing the people I worked with in Corpus Christi were and how understanding they were, they could not understand why I was even at work that night! but, I am my daddy's girl and what else could I do? I remember talking to Jen early on that night when they left, she told me things were ok. Shawn had held Cody up in front of your bed when they were leaving and you opened your eyes and said "bye buddy, I love you" I remember going to lunch and dad calling and I knew, before I answered, what he was going to say to me. I remember the call. BW called right after daddy did, and when I told him he of course left to meet me at my house. I left work, that was never a question, I think they told me to leave... they were so supportive. I remember going home... I remember calling Pam and talking to daddy a couple more times. I flew out at 6am, BW had his PRT that morning so it worked out well for him to drop me off at the airport before going to work. I remember seeing Jen at the airport and all the talks and decisions of that day and the couple that followed. I remember you. I miss you, momma, more than I can ever express. I love you. And I remember how much you loved me. So much has happened in the past two years that I have wanted so badly to share with you, and at times have had to remind myself that I can't, in the conventional way anyway. You would have loved knowing that I finally moved to San Diego, where I always wanted to go! and, you would have loved coming out to visit!!! The girls I met out there, you would have truly appreciated the friendships I built and how amazing they have been to me. I needed you during the time that BW and I were not together, and wanted to share with you the excitement and happiness that came when we decided to get back together. Alix got engaged and married... boy did I need you during that for so many different reasons. And, I needed you more than ever this last month with taking a staff job and finding a place to live... wow! I moved to Savannah, you would love it here! And, I really am happy with my new job. I wish I could tell you so much about it, so much that you would be so proud of me for, and only you would really understand why it is all so important and be proud of me.

But, we are ok. As much as we all miss you, God has provided us all with supportive people in our lives to help us through these difficult days and to just be there and support and love us. I know you would be thankful for that as well.

I miss you, momma, and I love you. I hope you are celebrating your Homecoming today.